This has probably been one of the worst weeks ever. Great intro to a blog post, right? So many things have happened and it's been packed with crying and re-watching episodes of tv shows I've seen eight times and doctor visits and the works. My heart is a bit broken. My emotions are a little bit fried. It's hard not to feel defeated when you feel the heart-break feelings. When you really pray about something and you know you're doing the right thing, but it hurts your heart so badly. And you don't want to hear everyone's fluffy quotes and inspirational speeches and Chris Tomlin songs [just kidding, I love you Christ T], you just carry around a lot of hurt. It stings and it feels like defeat. But really, it's only defeat if you let Satan claim the spiritual warfare in your life as defeat. Don't you worry, I'm not getting on the inspirational quote soap box, stay with me here for a minute. It's easy to push through hurt feelings when you're mad. It's like a weird motivation to power through it and show people you're not going to let it get you down. You listen to a workout song and put on your nikes and get it done. But when you're just sad, it's harder to be all up and arms and a go-getter. You eat a doughnut, or five, and watch a sad movie and listen to a sad Ron Pope song. When things like this happen, it makes your heart ache. Let's just be honest, it really sucks. And it's okay to feel gross. It's okay to cry and re-watch pretty little liars eight time. Maybe not the second thing. But it's okay to feel horrible. And believe me, when you have to make a decision that hurts your heart, you will. [Feel horrible, not watch Pretty Little Liars...] It's really okay to not be okay. But it's not okay to be defeated. Christ has given us the freedom and power to overcome the spiritual warfare that Satan tries to trip us up on when he's ticked off that we are living for Christ. But he has no power there. He can't claim the hope and the victory that Christ already claimed. So you have to dust off what Satan is trying to bog you down with and continue to do what you're doing in Christ and let Him strengthen you. That doesn't mean you forget that you're upset and power through. Let yourself be sad and hurt and let Christ's love comfort you. Jesus cried, he was heart-broken, he had emotions, he was a person! He actually gets your hurt. He truly knows how it feels. Don't let the feeling of defeat get in your way. You don't have time for that. Philippians 4:4-9 "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God,which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you."
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